Latin, Sanskrit, English...brain, body, spirit.

Somehow I was limber and relaxed and capable enough in class yesterday to do Kurmasana with my upper arms slid back under my thighs and palm facing the sky. It was another great hot yoga class: feeling myself open a little more, getting deeper, focused and strong. And perfectly imperfect. Each day is different, is new, and what I could do yesterday only influences what I can do today, never dictates it.

I'm working on figuring out asanas to optimize the different systems of the body. It's easy to to say that a particular asana is good for this or that. Not as easy to state why. It's coming along, though.

One week left of work and then it's full-time training with my amazing instructors and the beautiful group of other students!

B Through

Transformation magnified by having spent the dawn hours reading Ray Long's book, The Key Muscles of Yoga, from my reading list for ZenSpot Institute for Hot Yoga Teacher Training Program. Trying to grasp new Latin vocabulary and remembering anatomy spun my head into a few knots, but connecting the book's words and pictures to my own body and experience while in a 75 minute class this afternoon was an amazing breakthrough.

And there's something happening in the Universe today...a lunar eclipse...eee clllipssss. Say it.

What I've read on another site by an anonymous writer is this, "...the South Node is in conjunction with the Sun, getting enlightened by it, and the Moon is in conjunction with the North Node, bringing to the surface our deepest aspirations and intuitions toward our spiritual meaning in this life...the North Node’s conjunction with the Moon makes us receptive to many aspects that are connected to our spiritual meaning and path in this life, awakening our spiritual “instincts” on the way." A lunar eclipse is the chance to suddenly become conscious of our nature and to understand and control it, to get control over the “beast” of our own limitations, becoming stronger and closer to our divine nature.

Awoke from a nightmare during the dark hours of morning. Terrible rejection, past fears, abandonment issues surfacing from a deep and neglected place. Is this connected to the eclipse, my excited fear about the training program, or something deeper?

Belly Full of Butterflies

I just jumped on the fast track to becoming a hot yoga instructor. First, I had to secure funds (not an easy task by any means), I applied, was accepted, I put a deposit down, and required books are on the way.

When I have the feeling that the yoga world is where I belong, I know I'm right. The many friends I've made in my classes have been so kind, supportive and positive, and these qualities are truly important to me on my journey.

Today I scheduled three weeks off from my job, I opened an account for my school funds, and I borrowed a laptop computer.

I am really going for it!

Not totally sure how our money situation will look in a month but I trust that everything will work out. It will be hard. It may be stressful. It is scary.

Taking healthy risks is part of growth.